Pressure

"Hi. Today, I'm feeling sorta dizzy. That could be due to the fact that I've been playing Minecraft nonstop since I woke up though... Thanks again, Benny! <3"

Anyhow. I recently found out that I was on Amin's list of "Blogs of Note," which you can find by clicking on the link. Now, I was having fun, going down the list, reading and following other people's blogs like crazy, when I got to the description of my blog. Check it out:

music-ecstasy - by Mandy T.A really deep blog, you have to know what's going on in order to get the posts. But the fish pond is awesome and the music list is really nice too. So even if you don't get the posts, you'll still find a reason to visit =D

I agree that my blogs are sorta random, and if you aren't me, or someone with extreme knowledge of what I'm going through on a daily basis (which... pretty much is just me), then you'll have no clue what's going on. While the fish pond is, in my opinion, a nice touch, the music list has been deleted. (Hah, shows how much you've been paying attention to my blog, Amin!) What I disagree with, however, is the comment about this being "A really deep blog."

To me, this blog is rented space where I can rant about things. I can let go of thoughts I've had throughout the day, emotions I've been holding in, messages I'm keeping unsent. I don't really go into depth about anything serious... I just say what I want, haha. But now, I think I'm feeling pressured into making sure that every blog post of mine is something deep.

Profound.

A la Confucius.

I don't mind making deep posts, but I don't want to feel like every post has to be like this.

Pressure... can be a good or bad thing. It can be used as a guide towards improvement, or it can drive someone to make rash decisions. My grade 7 teacher once told me this:

A diamond is a rock made good under pressure.

But what if the rock cracks? What if it never makes it to the diamond stage, if it can't stand the pressure, if it can't take the heat? Then what?

Personally, I would prefer a world without pressure. If I need motivation, I want it to be a self-driven motivation. I don't want to be told what to do by anyone other than me. Also... I think I'd like to be able to just take a break, you know? Lay down, relax, not have to worry about things that are going on or things that have to be done.

Swimming is a good parallel to this, I think. While it's nice to strive for a goal, to get to your destination, we need to remember that we are all human. Sometimes, it might be better to just float for a while.

Alright already we'll all float on.
Alright, don't worry even if things end up a bit too heavy.
We'll all float on...alright.
Already we'll all float on.
And we'll all float on, okay.

goodbye
ttyl. :)

P.S- I'm also feeling a bit cautious on updating about my personal life now... How do I know whether or not someone I don't want reading this blog is actually reading this blog while I don't want them to?


[Edit: So after reading this post, Amin changed the description of my blog. It now reads...

music-ecstasy - by Mandy T.
A really deep blog, you have to know what's going on in order to get the posts. But the fish pond is awesome and the quotes widget is humorous too. So even if you don't get the posts, you'll still find a reason to visit =D

Good save, buddy. :P I might decide to stick up a music player again soon though... My old one was glitching.]