Merry Christmas

"Hi. Today is Christmas Eve... I'm sick."

Once bitten and twice shy
I keep my distance but you still catch my eye
Tell me baby do you recognize me?
Well it's been a year it doesn't surprise me

Happy Christmas
I wrapped it up and sent it
With a note saying "I love you" I meant it
Now I know what a fool I've been
But if you kissed me now I know you'd fool me again

A crowded room friends with tired eyes
I'm hiding from you and your soul of ice
My god I thought you were someone to rely on
Me? I guess I was a shoulder to cry on

A face on a lover with a fire in his heart
A man under cover but
you tore me apart
Ooooh
Now I've found a real love you'll never fool me again

Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone
I'll give it to someone special.

goodbye
ttyl. :)

P.S- Sick with the cold? Sick-minded? Love-sick? Take your pick.

STRESS.

[Edit: I posted this without a title by accident. That's how tired I am.]

"Today... I am exhausted."

In every way possible.

Physically...
...I am feeling ill. I've got the sniffles, headaches, muscle pains... I can't move in the cold. And winter makes me want to go into hibernation.

Mentally...
...There's just one more day before winter break. I'm on the "JUST HANG IN THERE!" sort of mentality right now. What I don't understand is this; I had my last summative two days ago. Why not just have winter break start early? Why do I have to go to class later today? Boo.

Emotionally...
...I am a train wreck. I have no clue what I want, I can't motivate myself to do it. I'm confused. I fear that I've lost a close friend, and that I'm in the process of losing another one. I think I'm messing up my life. I'm losing sleep over this... There's pressure on me coming from all around. No one's happy, no matter what I do. My emotions are hectic, they are chaotic, and I am tired of it. I want to just stop feeling...

I'm going to bed.
Let's hope that everything will be numbed again by the time I wake up.

goodbye
ttyl. :)

P.S- Wrong smiley. Should be ":("

Absurdism

"Hi. Today... is just one of those days."

Yeah, you know what I mean. Those days when you want nothing to do other than curl up under your blanket and never wake up again.
It's something I miss, just being able to be somewhere, safe and warm and happy. It might have been fake, yes. But even if it was all cleverly constructed lies, I miss that warmth.
There are people who say they care. Here's the thing to realize. Some of them are just playing you. Others think that they actually do care.
In reality, mankind is selfish. We care for naught but ourselves.

My faith in humanity has been lost long since this moment.

goodbye
ttyl. :)

P.S- Again, not a decent post. I haven't posted anything real in so long... Although I keep saying that I will. I'll get around to it sometime. Once I can make sense of what's been going down.

Once Upon A December

"Hi. Today, it's a winter wonderland outside..."


It's December the 6th today... I'm touched with nostalgia. Although I feel differently now, I do wish for the simpler, happier times past occasionally. 
There are so many "what if?"s floating around in my head. 
I hope you're doing well.






Dancing bears,
Painted wings,
Things I almost remember.
And a song someone sings
Once upon a december

Someone holds me safe and warm;
Horses prance through a silver storm;
Figures dancing gracefully,
Across my memory...

Far away, long ago,
Glowing dim as an ember,
Things my heart used to know;
Things I yearn to remember.
And a song someone sings
Once upon a December 


goodbye
ttyl :)


P.S- You were the one who told me that it's never truly goodbye. 
11:11; make a wish.

For Carol Chui

"Hi. Today, I'm gonna waste an entire post just for one person."
HI CAROL!

: D

goodbye
ttyl. :)

P.S- I'll post a real post sometime soon. Promise. Or not.