Sometimes.

"Hi. Today, I haven't really got much time to write... But I barely write nowadays anyways. Gahh, I'll try and write more. Seriously. (Although... no one really reads this anyways, bahaha.)"

These days, it feels like you're ignoring me. You pretend that I'm not there, you never meet my eyes. You won't speak to me, and my words never seem to reach your ears.

Yet sometimes...

There are times when I catch you looking at me.

I'll turn around, and for a quick flash, my eyes will meet yours. Then, of course... You turn away, and pretend it never happened. But why? Do I scare you? Do you hate me?

Or...

Is there something you want to say?

And don't get me wrong. It's not that I have nothing to say to you, nor that I don't want to say anything to you. It's that I can't say anything to you. You won't give me the chance to tell you all the thoughts that run through my head. To be fair, I'm not giving myself that chance either; the fear of repulsion, of rejection, of worsening the situation is much greater than my need to speak.

So until I gain the courage to tell you, I'll remain silent.

As fake as ever.

goodbye
ttyl :)

P.S- I realize that this blog is rather obscure, seeing as I haven't named anyone. I apologize for that. My next blog will be something about a penguin. Or something strange like that. :)